I Was the Guy Who "Tried Everything"

I was so burned out I couldn’t even get out of bed before noon.

Not because I was lazy.
Because I was exhausted from pretending I had it all together.

For a few hours, I could fake it. Smile. Post something inspiring. Feel decent.
But by nightfall, I was spiraling. Depressed. Numb. Anxious. Sometimes suicidal.

And the worst part? I was spiritual enough to gaslight myself.

I'd say “It’s just a phase” or “This is all part of the healing” while drowning in supplements CBD, delta 8, kava, kratom, ashwagandha.

Anything but medication, because I didn’t want to admit how bad it really was.

I told myself I was fine.
But I was broke. I was heartbroken. And I was barely surviving.

The woman I thought I’d spend my life with cheated on me.

For almost a year, I didn’t sleep. My mind wouldn’t stop replaying everything what she was doing, who she was with, what I did wrong.

Debt collectors were calling me daily. I had lawsuits pending. Wages garnished. I was Ubering and Instacarting just to eat..

I was living in my parents' house in my 30s. Two kids I couldn’t financially support…

Motivational videos. Porn. Tattoos. Doomscrolling. Alcohol. Video games..

I was addicted to anything that helped me not feel.

And here’s the irony:

I was doing all the “right” things…

I did the affirmations. EFT tapping. Coaching. Visualization. Ayahuasca.

I spent over $70,000 on healing RTT, DMT, mushrooms, retreats, breathwork, CBT, shadow work, timeline therapy, law of attraction, somatic exercises, trauma release, life coaching, mindset work…

Nothing worked.

Because I wasn’t just emotionally blocked.
I was subconsciously protecting myself from healing.

All I wanted was peace.

I wanted to support myself and my family without stress.
Be present with my kids.
Feel good in my body again.
Have a relationship that felt safe.
Actually enjoy being alive.

But everything I tried left me more disconnected, more discouraged, more hopeless.

I felt broken. Defective. Like something was deeply wrong with me.

Until I stopped trying to “fix” myself...

…and I started listening to what my subconscious was trying to protect me from.

That’s when I discovered conversational hypnosis.

And not the fluffy kind…

I’m talking about deep, raw, nervous-system-resetting work that didn’t require years of therapy or intellectualizing everything.

And then something wild happened.

My body started releasing sadness and anger I hadn’t felt in years.

It wasn’t pretty.
It wasn’t spiritual.
But it was real.

For the first time, I stopped managing symptoms… and started changing my baseline.

Joy started showing up. It felt foreign at first. Like, "Is this allowed?"
I stopped overthinking every little thing.
I stopped expecting life to disappoint me.
I stopped needing a breakthrough just to function.

And here’s what really changed everything:

I started trusting myself.

If you’re reading this, you probably don’t need more mindset work.

You don’t need another retreat. Another strategy. Another supplement stack.

You need to unhook from the protective patterns your nervous system thinks are keeping you safe.

You need to stop spiritualizing your pain and start resolving it at the root.

That’s what I help people do now—with conversational hypnosis that speaks directly to the unconscious patterns sabotaging your peace, power, and potential.

So if you’re done pretending it’s “fine”...

Done managing symptoms...

And ready to actually feel like you again

Then I’d love to guide you through the same shift that saved my life.